Lets's Start From The Very Beginning...
It's a very good place to start.
I’ve always been a spiritual person. Not a religious person, but a spiritual person. And I think there’s a difference between religion and spirituality, but for the purpose of getting my introduction to the point, I’ll focus more on that ‘difference’ another time.
When I was a little girl (many, MANY years ago now), I was always fascinated with magical and mystical things. As an only child, I grew up on a farm and spent most of my childhood playing by myself in a paddock and being left to my own imagination. There was no internet, we had two television channels to choose from, so I read a lot and drew pictures and became quite creative. My parents were very hands on people too. Mum made beautiful jewellery from sterling silver and dad was a photographer. These were hobbies for my parents, although my mum did turn her hobby into a business for many years. So, a lot of my creativity comes from them. My spirituality, on the other hand, was just something that came naturally, of course, but I didn’t really figure it out until I was in my mid 20’s. Growing up, I had always tuned in to nature. I could tell when seasons were arriving a little earlier than the previous year. I loved collecting acorns, twigs and leaves. When I was a very little girl, I would make potions in a big pot, with water and flowers I had picked from the garden (much to my grandmothers horror), and my mothers expired jars of herbs from the kitchen. At that age, I had no idea that what I was doing was even considered ‘witchery’, but it all felt natural to me. And it was fun. In my 20’s, I concluded that we were all just beings made from energy, and that once the vessel (our physical body) had expired, the energy within it would be released and transformed into something else. This was still before the internet was a thing. It’s just what I intuitively felt. But I still didn’t fully comprehend what intuition was all about. I just ‘felt’ things. It seemed natural, but I didn’t really understand it.
I didn’t really figure out what intuition was until a couple of years ago. I had generally always trusted my gut when the need arose, but sometimes I didn’t listen and I would obviously pay the consequences. But it was towards the end of 2017 when things really started ‘happening’ for me, and since then I have been on a very interesting journey! Without going into ALL the details, since then I have tuned into my intuition as much as possible, and it has served me well! I do recall one time I didn’t listen and it really bit me in the arse! But that’s another story… So listening to my intuition however, has helped me really hone in on a direction, or path for me. On several occasions, I have had friends (and strangers!) tell me that I am a healer. And yet, this was something I could not figure out. I’m not really a people person (which is odd because I work in retail), I don’t like people invading my personal space, I don’t like touching strange people (so I could never do reiki), and I’m by no means qualified to counsel people. I knew in my gut though that there was a reason I had been told this so many times. I just needed to figure it out. And rather than forcing the issue, I decided that it would come to me in due course.
I’ve always loved drawing. When I was younger, I would spend hours drawing dragons, elves, goblins and all sorts of magical imagery. I remember that watching The Dark Crystal was the movie that started everything for me, and over the years, fantasy and medieval movies inspired a lot of my artwork. Celtic knot work and patterns proved to be relaxing and therapeutic to draw and in subsequent years, I moved onto drawing mandalas. After collaborating with other artists in 2015 to create a colouring book, I realised that other people enjoyed my mandalas as well. I drew more and more mandalas, for my own enjoyment more than anything, but wondered if there was something more I could do with them. In early 2018, I was messing around with some cardboard one day, trying to fashion a system where I could index the mandala designs I was coming up with, as a reference of sorts. As I began to draw mandalas on the cards, it occurred to me then, that I could create a little oracle deck for myself. I had cut enough card to make a deck of maybe 50 cards. One night, while I was wasting time on social media, I came across a YouTube video for a course on how to create and publish your own oracle deck. I watched it and thought it would be fun to do, but never thought anymore about it. A few months later, I mentioned the course to a friend while we chatting over coffee one day. Again, I didn’t think much more of it, but then one day the penny dropped…
I asked myself if my mandalas was possibly the way I was meant to ‘heal‘ other people? What if I created the oracle deck for everyone else, instead of just myself? My intuition instantly kicked in. This is it! This is what I am supposed to do! And so this is where it all starts! So with a brief history lesson on how this all came about, this blog will essentially be my journey on the creation of this deck. A journey I invite you to join me on. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do, or how to go about it, but I’m determined to learn, and in the end, whenever that may be, there is going to be an oracle deck and one massive achievement! I hope you’ll stick with me on this journey. It could be fun, it could be scary. It could be the craziest idea I’ve come up with. But right now, this feels right.